It’s My Birthday

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We lost my Dad last May 25th, 2017 on my Birthday.

He also could not really talk much and I had gone to TN to see my son and my grand-babies. Thinking I would be there for 3 months and it turned into 5 as our van died. But way before we came home to New York, mom called to say Dad wasn’t doing good and could we come home. I had been calling him daily, sometimes a couple times a day. He could talk then… I would always say ” I Love you ” and he would say ” I Love you too “.

I think that is the hardest part for them and for us

( when they cannot tell us what they want to say)

On May 23rd My oldest son Wesley, my youngest son Daniel and I arrived back in New York and on the 24th we went to see my Dad. He couldn’t talk to us or get the right words out. This was very hard for my son Wesley and I, at one point Wes, said he was going outside, seeing his grandfather unable to talk or respond to anything he said was hard. There are so many days that I wish that the hospital had not taken him off the meds he was on, it allowed the infection to spread faster and affect his mind and ability to talk with us.  I wanted so much to hear my fathers thoughts and to hear him say I love you one last time.

All my siblings were there, we took turns visiting him and at one point I think we were all in there in his room. Dad tried to talk, tried to tell us things but not much was audible. I hovered around his bedside and talked to him, he would follow me the whole time with his eyes and each time I would stop near his side or at the end of his bed, he would look at me and say ” Hey “…. and I would ask him what he wanted, ask him if he wanted a drink and he would shake his head no… and I would tell him that I loved him…..  At one point I was standing at the foot of his bed, thinking we would never get a chance to hear his thoughts again or know what he thought of us.

My son Daniel 9 at the time was there and had said Hi to Dad. Dad and Dan would sit and watch TV and talk weekly on our proverbial pizza night at home before we went to TN.

But that day in the hospital, though none of us could understand Dad much and he was very weak and not moving a lot….. out of nowhere, Daddy lifted his hands way up in the air and Literally hollered out ” Daniel ” and everyone went silent and cheered… Daniel was like What? To me, it was a spiritual thing and a way of Dad letting me and Daniel know that we were important to him. That he loved us and wanted Daniel to know that. It was the most loving thing that he was able to do. It will forever be in my heart, that he loved my son so much that he mustered the strength and hollered his name, lifting his hands high in the air…. It was akin to reading about Aaron holding up Moses hands in the bible.

You know I can only hope and pray that before I pass from life to eternal life that I pass on to my kids my belief and faith in our Lord Jesus. To instill in them the desire to serve the Lord, like my Dad did with me. Dad and I were very close all my life…

On my Birthday it was raining and I was in my moms’ kitchen sitting by the window, thinking about my Dad. My siblings all wandering through the house. I prayed a prayer… Lord if it is your will even this day, my Birthday wish is that Dad would go home to glory and be with you and no longer in pain. and literally not more then 3 minutes later my birthday wish came true and my mom called to say that he was gone home to heaven. She had turned around to get something, heard him take a breath and turned back and he was gone. Life is but a vapor and we need to cherish those we love….. Children Obey your parents…..Honor thy Father and thy Mother…

From my lips to God’s ear… In a moment of time…

God answered my prayer

My birthday wish… came true…

( I have never had the Lord answer prayer that fast, but that day He did ! )

That was a year ago today…  I was 53 and Daddy was 76…

Today, I am 54…  I am still missing my Dad so very much…

4 thoughts on “It’s My Birthday

  1. Aw, Linda! This made me cry. There is joy and beauty and heartache all wrapped into this loving tribute to your dad. I’m glad to know this about your birthday, and hope you’re able to celebrate today and commemorate all that it means in ways that are meaningful to you.

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  2. Vicki

    What a precious birthday memory. May God bless you with many more. Enjoy this day & God bless you EVERY day. Our daddies played a very important part of our lives & it’s difficult knowing we can no longer get those physical hugs anymore, while at the same time know they are in a much better place waiting to see us again someday.
    💞🙏💞🙏💞🙏💞

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