Our Home: Updated 9/23/19

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This has been a 10-year battle to save our home from bank fraud. A battle that our lawyer believes we can win… As many of you know I am being a single mom and have disabilities due to an accident I had in 2001 that damaged my back and my neck. This has been our home for 13 years and really the only home my three youngest have known. So far the court has stopped the sale of our home 4 times and then ordered this stay on the foreclosure sale, but as per the law set this moderate undertaking required by law
when someone applies as a poor person to wave the fees for the filings. If they had set this as a monthly payment, I could have done this alone, but since they asked me to do a one lump sum ($7200), it’s far harder for me given my income and needing to pay bills.

 I have prayed and I am praying for answers and for a miracle. These last 3 years have been very hard on the children and I as we fight for our home and face losing it. Many of you already know our story over the years, but those of you who are new may not. Its been a struggle, but one I am not about to give into, to do so would be to me showing a lack of faith. All I know is my God is Able and I am standing…

 

Update: 9/23/19

Currently, we’re still living in the house, although it was sold July 2nd of this year. There should be word from the court soon as to the appeal on ownership issues and there is so much even that I didn’t know that I am just here living my life and trusting the Lord in all of this.  I was finally approved and found medically disabled by Social Security, so I will be getting SSI and this will help us to make ends meet.  Having been disabled since 2001 in a car accident that broke my left leg in 3 places and gave me back & neck damage. At my husband’s request then, I didn’t apply for SS, probably the first mistake as I was in a wheelchair for 10 months and then had to learn to walk again. Since then I have not been able to do work that would support us. (myself and the children) Mark doesn’t live with us due to his own issues with mental illness. (Not going to feel shame for saying so) Mental illness isn’t great to deal with, The person suffering or the person trying to care for them when they have psychosis dementia and don’t know who you are at times.  That is another whole post in the future.  After 17 years together and apart… I told him he needed help when he got violent in the home. No one should have to deal with Domestic Violence and No one has any excuse for causing fear and heartache in another person.  Over the years have tried many businesses in Direct Sales & MLMs and finally, after it never panning out, I quit trying that and just continued to devote my time to Prayer, Bible reading and Book Reading & Reviewing. I can tell you that God has been nothing but Amazing this past year and a half! Always going beyond anything I could imagine would happen. And right now I know he has a plan and His perfect will is all I am seeking in everything.  I can see His Hand in my life and He has blessed me in ways, that I knew were just His doing.  Someday maybe I will write/blog about those things…  This week even being granted the SSI and Doing what he has called me to do! Him making a way for me to help us and others! Even the things we have had to part with, we have given to those that truly needed it.  That part still floors me. Leaves me in tears of blessing and gratitude. Just so thankful for each thing he shows me, gives to me and helps us with.

 

 A Little History

2006 Bought this Home

2008 Went to TN for the winter

(we couldn’t afford the propane heat, hot water & cooking. Mark said he couldn’t work)

2009 Told by the Bank they were going to foreclose, so we had tried a short sale and asked for a modification on the loan as our income decreased sharply

2010 Bank of America threatens to foreclose and were given permission to sell the house and then for whatever reason, never did, claiming they had paperwork to file.  In the meantime from 2010 – 2013 Kept saying they would work on a modification with us. Never sent real papers to use to fill out and kept saying we were $100 short monthly from getting a modification. We had LawNY working on this case on our behalf.

2013 They sold the Mortgage to Lakeshore Mortgage Services who let M&T Bank service the loan.

2015 Bank of America comes back and tries to foreclose on our home and doesn’t really own the mortgage they sold. Yet M&T never comes even when asked to by me, to bring their lawyer in court and tell Bank of America to stop their trying to steal a house they don’t own.

2017 Bank of America is still trying to steal the house and M&T does nothing.  We go to TN almost yearly to see my son and grandkids. Sept 2017 we come home to the house being full of MOLD… We pay $900 for mold testing, $5,000 for mold remediation, $1000 for 2 30 yard dumpsters of belongings we lost to MOLD. Meanwhile, I find a program to insulate the house and each year getting more of the electric updated to the tune of $3000 total.  We bought plywood, flooring, cabinets (freestanding) ect ect ect..

January – July 2018 Mark leaving repeatedly and then causing Myself and the kids to worry and fear Him and it just became unbearable to care for him and his issues and still be able to focus on everything the kids needed and trying to still deal with everything life was throwing at us.   Like I said, that is all posts for another time.

He got his own place, still angry and bitter that I for one got an order of protection, filed for child support and filed for custody of the kids.

July 2018 thru?

August 2018: Enter God… Smiling…  He just totally floored me in meeting our needs, taking care of us and making a year that could have been a real hardship and unbearable…Totally Blessed and Amazing!  He met every spiritual need I had, He provided for every material need we had and I am ever grateful for each day’s mercy and grace!

 Learning to trust the Lord for All things, Learning that Humane nature 101 ( Smiling Faces Tell Lies) was really a lie from the man saying it continually. Learning who really loved me and who had my back! Who my real friends were and are! Creating a stable life for the kids & I!  Learning that I had the power and ability to stand up to the devil and anyone working on his behalf to try to mess me up and trying to get me to take the wrong path. Thankfully, when you are free of negativity, mental, emotional and financial abuse, you can see things so clearly when your mind has stayed on the Lord God.

There is so much that happened, far more than could ever be shared in one blog post!

More things I will share at some point…  He stopped the sale on the house 3 times, Filled the well with water when I prayed and asked him for this as a sign and it is still working.  I won’t guarantee it will if I have to leave here, but that won’t be my issue then right… it will be the owners. Which is the Dept of Veterans Affairs!  I learned so much in a year and a half. More then I ever learned in Real Estate School! About Auctions, About Investments, About the Law!

Well, here I am and it’s Sept 2019, somehow 2019 is flying by with trips to the beach, birthday parties for grandkids & our 2019 family picnic that was a total washout lol. We stayed, we lived we had rain all and sunshine and kids finally went swimming that night! We made a few more trips to the beach with friends and it was healing and just a total blessing!

I can say that it has been those times that I was alone, torn, broken & in tears that I reached out to God and found Him there, to hold me, to wipe my tears away, healing my heart and my mind…  If anyone found me to be uncaring, quiet, anti-social, downright rude blocking you on socials, well I am not sorry… I had to do what I needed to for myself and for my children… I still am doing so at times… but The children have learned that as in the past, I am here to care for them. Listen to them and love them no matter what we go through! And I will never leave them and never have…

Like I said years ago…It’s Not About Me! It’s Not About YOU! It is about these children and their needs and loving them…  Providing for them! Raising them not to follow bad examples that have been set before them. About breaking the chains that once bound us, due to the sins of the fathers and reaching for what should have been a normal life for the 17 years they have been growing up.  Materialism? No, We have learned to make due as in the past, we have learned that God provides for us, but we learned that sometimes it comes in ways that we never expected.

Goals: Raising them, Schooling them, Protecting them from bad influences & examples. Helping them mature so that someday they can care for themselves.

I am going to leave the info below as I know that God works in ways that totally amaze me…

If anyone feels led to bless us in any way, you can email me at this email or help too.  I am still praying for Some needs that I know the Lord is going to supply for us.

I hope this post brings just a bit of understanding of what has happened over the last 17 years in our lives!  All Glory goes to the Lord God!

You may donate personally by using my PayPal faithfulacres7@gmail.com

Thank you for your love to us, words are not enough sometimes to express
how I feel and have felt over the years to those of you who have prayed and walked this out with me… Some have been such a blessing and encouragement in word and deed the last 10 years

Thank you
Linda


“We All Make Mistakes”

“We All Make Mistakes”

Porch lights. They mark the night with their white-yellow glow. Some beckon. Some warn. Some burn to protect those on the inside from the shadows that lurk on the edges of the darkness.
For some, their porch lights shine like the star of hope against a cobalt sky. They bathe the night with their light and wash the sleeping home with quiet. All is well. All is bright.
There are a handful of porch lights that will never go out. They can’t. They went on one evening when that son or daughter stormed out into the thickness and blackness of the cold. The door slammed. The feet pounded across the wooden planks of the porch and then disappeared beyond the light’s half circle.
It’s been a long time. For some, months. Others, years. There are a few who have put a decade of running between them and that porch light. The prayers on the inside haven’t stopped. The hope might have fainted and faltered a few times, but it’s still there.
That’s why the light still burns…….and will keep burning. It’s a God thing. It’s a Redeemer thing. Grace-based homes are not homes without sin or regrets. They are just homes where, no matter what, you can’t be written off. They are homes where young and restless hearts are free to be different, vulnerable, and candid. They’re allowed to make mistakes. Huge ones sometimes. But because grace is inside, the front porch light will always glow outside.
Regardless of why they left, they can always come back. Regardless of where they went, they can always come home. And regardless of what they did, they can always come in.”

“Grace Based Parenting” by Dr. Tim Kimmel


Wow, Your a Repeated Failure ?

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How to Attain Excellence

Yesterday, I talked about the Definition of Excellence and How it is Measured  by the world, the church and by others and perhaps even by you, but also how God measures it.

To Fail Repeatedly, is how we learn and how we succeed !  

So in reality while you think you are a failure, you are learning and learning is not something we fail at. You may not have met up to someone else’s standard… but who’s standard are we really needing to meet up to ?  God’s….and yet we pressure our selves or allow others to pressure us to the point we give up or we become ill physically, emotionally or mentally.

“Stress” what happens when we allow things to trouble us…

So how do we attain or excel in  “Excellence” ?

Consider the following verses…

Romans 12:1-2,  tells us we are to present our bodies as a living sacrifice , holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is good, and acceptable and perfect ,will of God.

James 1:27, tells us that Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and the widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted  from the world.

I John 2: 15-17,  tells us Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him.  For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. And the world passeth away, and the lust of thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever.

Wow, that sort of simplified things , can you see it ?

How can we know God’s Will, unless we follow the ways in which he says to life !

The Bible is a great instruction manual !!!

We will reserve discussing roles in the Family & Home for another day….

Let’s look again at Ruth and see how she attained ” Excellence” and why she was considered ” A Woman of Excellence”.

In Ruth 3:11 these are the character traits I personally see in her…

She has strength, She is worthy, She is brave and She is capable.   She was also Bold, unafraid or fearless and the important part is she waited upon the Lord to show her what to do and for Him to provide for her.

Proverbs 12:4   Tells us, A virtuous woman is a crown to her husband.

Virtuous : having or showing high moral standards.

synonyms: righteous, good, pure, whiter than white, saintly, angelic, moral, ethical, upright,upstanding, high-minded, principled, exemplarylaw-abiding, irreproachable,blameless, guiltless, unimpeachable, immaculate, honest, honorable, reputable,laudable, decent, respectable, noble, worthy, meritorious;

informal squeaky clean “they were entirely virtuous in their endeavors”

archaic: Chaste

( I like looking at words and definitions as it gives us a better view of knowing what things mean and who we should be )

Proverbs 31:10  says ” Who can find a virtuous woman ? for her price is far above rubies.

She displays all those noble characteristics and this makes her of great value !

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Who are you trying to please anyway ?

I Corinthians 10: 31  says ” Whether  therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do , do all to the glory of God”.

Philippians 1: 9-11 says ” And this I pray, that your love  may abound yet more and more in knowledge and in all judgement; That ye may approve things that are excellent; that ye may be sincere and without offence till the day of Christ; Being filled with the fruits of righteousness, which are by Jesus Christ, unto the glory and praise of  God.”

Philippians 4:8 says ” Whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. “

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We are to be pleasing God !

You might not get all your To Do List Done…

Your day may not have gone perfectly, but that is perfectly normal !

You should be redeeming the Time, not wasting it .  This past year I started using a planner. For Home & Business, it has helped me greatly to see what I am doing and how much time I am spending on doing things. I am a Keeper at Home, Wife of a Man who is Disabled , I Homeschool my 3 children , Have this blog and Run an At Home Business ! I also  Write and I am working on a book !

What are your duties ? On a daily basis there is a lot to do !

We will talk about Planners, Scheduling and Doing all things well another day !

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Stop Feeling Worthless !

Proverbs 31:30-31 says “But a woman that feareth the Lord , She shall be praised. Give her the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.”

If you are known for those good things y0u do or say that are virtuous

You are Worthy and Honorable !

Join Me Tomorrow , Lord willing  as we look at

The Character of God

~ Linda Marie ~


Becoming A Woman of Excellence ! by Cynthia Heald

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Have you ever allowed your circumstances in life to hold you back ? Thinking you could never measure up to those women in the bible… or maybe those around you…

As I was studying The Word this morning and reading from a devotional I was sent, It finally dawned on me that ” Becoming  A Woman of Excellence ” had nothing to do with my circumstances or what status I was born into or how many times I failed at something in life.

Tweet: “All my people in the city know that you are a woman of excellence”

Ruth 3:11

Ruth was a widow, a foreigner and she was out gleaning the grain from fields where those who harvested , had missed some.  So she was not known there only by her actions…  If others watched you, would they see you as a woman of excellence ?  Ruth was not of high estate or well to do ! She merely followed what the Lord had put in her heart to do , Go with and care for her mother in law Naomi.

Reading the book of Ruth , I would say she was ready for a change in life… She chose adventure over remaining the same and she was a loyal friend and daughter !    She had a tender heart and was a very caring woman ! She was a woman of noble character, she was selfless in doing those things that were excellent, she was strong and did those things she found a worthy pursuit in life.

I would suppose that many women would not have been so brave to follow someone to a land they had never been to… Have you ever done that ? Picked up and moved to a land (state) you have never been to ?  I have… not knowing what awaited us there but following what the Lord showed us to do at the time.

Excellence is measured by Success in Life for the most part today.  In what we attain or what we accomplish.  Many times we feel like failures in life as we don’t have the finest things, we have not made it to that position in our career, business or as a stay at home mom we feel that we have not attained some status in caring for our children , home or spouse. Something is lacking in our lives !!!

What is that ?

Tweet: We are comparing our lives to others lives ? or even to ourselves ?

For we dare not make ourselves of the number , or compare ourselves wit some that commend themselves: but they measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing  themselves among themselves, are not wise.

2 Corinthians 10: 12

I am here to tell you that you don’t have to allow your circumstances or your current position to keep you from “Becoming a Woman of Excellence” !

Tweet: Kick those could have, should have , would have’s out the door !

Fame, Success, Materialism and Popularity are fading… Today the church has become so much like the world that its hard to tell your brothers and sisters apart from those in the world who follow after such things.  Its no wonder so many find “Christians” to be hypocrites !  They see no difference in those who say they follow Christ, then they do in the world !

As I share this devotional and God’s Word with you, I am hearing the Lord speaking to be as well in the areas I need to change things in my heart and my life…

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Becoming  A Woman Of Excellence even from the first chapter is a very thought provoking study of areas that can be life changing ! I need to be totally honest with you here… though I read my bible and I take notes, I am a list person ! I have never been good at writing in a devotional or journaling, blogging or following through in some ways. But I am going to try to change that, as I wish to be an encouragement as I seek to follow the Lord and the changes he wants me to make in my own life and the life of my family.

Think on this…

Presenting our bodies as a living sacrifice , holy acceptable unto God, which is our reasonable service. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

Romans 12: 1&2 

~ Linda Marie ~

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Sucking the Life Out of You !

Sucking The Life Out of You – By Linda Bradt Finn
 
 
~ I am not sure about you all, but I have always tried to be a people pleaser and always help others… Sometimes, to the point that I am emotionally drained and dragged down. It wasn’t until 2015 that I finally realized there are folks who will always be an emotional drain on you and never listen to sound advice and never change their lives no matter how sick they are… I am talking physically, emotionally or mentally sick. Have you ever felt like that ? You do and do for others until your empty and you might not even have the energy for your own family that it has drained you so much… its not a good place to be. When you think family, I am talking those in your own house, not extended family outside your home. We have to focus on Us and our immediate family in our home as that is what matters at the moment. I know that is so true for me as a wife to a man with mental and physical disabilities and as a homeschooling mom of 3 who are still at home. There were days in my past where even my older kids as older teens and even as they become young adults or adults the drama and emotional damage that they can do to you , disabled me from doing my best for the Lord in my own home and it really reaps havoc on your family. Mark and I suffered a lot of emotional crap trying to raise my kids from a previous relationship. Even to the point of being investigated by CPS 4 times and found not guilty of the allegations put against us. And when it comes to “friends” those you have met, by letter, on the internet, or in person, I tended to go into each relationship 100% and thought others were the same way as I am. Time and time again, Mark would say “Lin, Human nature 101…smiling faces tell lies ” For so many years I never could see that as I was raised to be a real friend and a truthful person. So when I would help someone, send them things numerous times over a 14 year period and never see any fruit from the advise given or a changed lifestyle, you tend to wonder if what your doing is effective. When you strive to love people like the Lord wants you to and they act like you are treating them wrong, you get very discouraged at times. And if you know more folks who help the same people a lot and it seems like everyone’s love and mercy on them isn’t making them more responsible, but causing them to become dependent upon everyone, you have to re-examine what your doing…. When I started my business I had several friends doing the same business…. so I chose to sign up under someone that had friends in common with me, hoping none of your friends would feel hurt and yet I could do business along side them and if anyone wanted to know how I was succeeding , I would share my knowledge with everyone so we all learned and benefited. I love seeing others I know and love succeed ! So how much can you really help those who never change, you have watched and seen this is the reality right… With my older adult children, I don’t even like to use adult as they at times are so immature and self centered, they don’t have the qualities of adults who are mature… but with them, I learned that if I allow their drama in my home or near us, we all suffer harm emotionally and mentally. With others who are suppose to be Adults and never change as I was told at some point you burn that bridge, don’t look back and go on with your life and live without their drama and constant draining on your life…at least until they learn the lesson God is trying to teach them. Trials in life are for learning from and sometimes when we all step in the way of that, they never learn to stand on their own two feet and become dependents of whomever. ( its akin to the welfare in the US….constant handouts create an entitlement attitude at the expense of others who work hard to earn what they have.) We can only help just so much or we harm those we are trying to help by standing in Gods way to bring them to the understanding of the need to be God sufficient… God has known my heart for the last 15 years Mark and I have been married and regardless of what others think, its been in the right place and I truly meant to be a real friend.
 
Real Friendships and Relationships don’t suck the life out of you…
 
For a man to have friends, He must show himself/herself to be friendly…
 
Be Truthful, Be Honest, Be Responsible, Be Honorable, Don’t Whine
 
#LiveLifeOnPurpose #GodlyLiving #TrueFriendships #RealRelationships #BeTruthful #BeHonest #BeResonsible #BeHonorable #StoptheWhining #IhaveTried #BurningBridges
#NoMoreDrama #DramaQueen